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I have just returned to my home. Here is quiet, dark and, as expected, only the cat came to welcome me
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I have just returned to my home. Here is quiet, dark and, as expected, only the cat came to welcome me
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I am beginning to process it all and it seems so unreal. I feel I have been in a dream. Like coming out of a fairytale. I am sitting here in my office, like so many times before, but I am having all these flashbacks from the last three days. I can see the hotel room in the dimmed light from the streetlights with you in the chair opposite to me. I see you walking the canal streets beside me and I remember making love to you and I hear your sighs. I can also see you moving around with a towel around you and I can still look into your eyes inside a hispanic bar-room with a tipsy mind. Especially, I can just close my eyes and smell your body scent and feel the warmth of your beautiful you. I want to reach out and touch you again…
The thing is, that I only have a key-card to room 123 in the Amrath hotel and a broken computer that prooves it has been taking place for real. It all seems like something from a fairytale or a told story. Out of context and out of what is supposed to happen in an ordinary life. But it did… thanks to you.
It has been wonderful. Amsterdam has changed appearnce to me after this. I know, I will always see you and me down there. I almost fear to go there again. I fear I will search up the places we have been to, together.
For now I miss you so much and I was so touched when I left you. I desperately wanted it to start all over again. I wanted to turn time back and having you sitting by the window, waiting for me. I believe I could live the rest of my life playing the three following days again and again.
B, you are a wonderful woman and I am so grateful that you made this happen to me and you trusted me. I have had one of the most important moments of my life with you. I have experienced what Celine and Jessie felt. I am so touched by what you have given me.
I know our relationship will take a new direction after this, but you have given me so much and I love you for that.
I love you
The thing is, that I only have a key-card to room 123 in the Amrath hotel and a broken computer that prooves it has been taking place for real. It all seems like something from a fairytale or a told story. Out of context and out of what is supposed to happen in an ordinary life. But it did… thanks to you.
It has been wonderful. Amsterdam has changed appearnce to me after this. I know, I will always see you and me down there. I almost fear to go there again. I fear I will search up the places we have been to, together.
For now I miss you so much and I was so touched when I left you. I desperately wanted it to start all over again. I wanted to turn time back and having you sitting by the window, waiting for me. I believe I could live the rest of my life playing the three following days again and again.
B, you are a wonderful woman and I am so grateful that you made this happen to me and you trusted me. I have had one of the most important moments of my life with you. I have experienced what Celine and Jessie felt. I am so touched by what you have given me.
I know our relationship will take a new direction after this, but you have given me so much and I love you for that.
I love you
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